September 17, 2022. The day we should have been bringing our baby girl home turned into a day coffee.
The days leading up to milestone dates always seem to be way worse than the date itself. I don't know if it has to do strictly with the anticipation or if it's more directly related to love and support on the milestone day that makes it a little less trash.
I have never felt so loved, seen, and heard before.
The very first time I felt a flutter from Makenna was when I was drinking a coffee. I didn't have caffeine often. I usually stuck with decaf as much as I possibly could. But, Makenna loved coffee. Every time I drink it I think of her. I think of the moments I had with her in my car just the two of us when I would take a sip of coffee and she would do a flip. Feeling her move was my favorite thing about being pregnant-I didn't enjoy much of pregnancy. But, every single time I felt her move I would stop whatever I was doing and just focus on her.
Because of this, I asked that everyone order their coffee with Makenna's name in honor of her due date.
And man did people deliver!
Seeing all of these pictures from people from literally all over the world honoring our daughter is everything I could have asked for on this day. It was one of the hardest days I've endured so far since Makenna died and I have a lifetime of hard days ahead. But, everyone remembering Makenna and loving her with us means everything.
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